fish that comitted suicide?

p/s:to my family,angoh da tak pkai email azshahida tu,tkar kpd putribuluhbetung@yahoo.com=)..thank u,ym still yg lame=)*hantupisang21*..

i remembered the 1st time my pak su and mak sue bought koi's to fill our little fish pond, one of them comitted suicide.

probably couldnt stand the change in environment.
or probably it was separated from its mom or dad.
or maybe it was bullied by the other big fishes in that big clear bag while on the way home from the fish shop..
or maybe it overheard my family and i joking about how convenient it was to just catch the fish in the pond and bbq it, complete with an imitation from bruce the shark from finding nemo, "we're having fish tonight!!" *evil laugh* (i think that came from paksu..hehe)


Allah knows best.

whatever it was, the fish killed itself. it was swimming so fast-non stop till it died;


that was the first em, death case in our pond.

last year i called up my mak sue, but instead of our usual girl talks, she related to me the massive deaths of our fishes inflicted by the water pump.
it mysteriously stopped working, and because my family xde kat umah for about 3 days, the stagnant water had ample time to murder the fishes - one by one.

my paksu and my brother had to dig this massive fish graveyard and completely clean the pond.

subhanallah..

there were only 2 koi's left, but both were blind.

it was pretty difficult to imagine there were only 2 left, and BLIND..
they've always had this amazing ability to sight people coming near the pond, they'd terus come up to you- their mouths'd be kissing the air - eager and practically begging for food.. and the way they fight each other for those ball-like fish food..let me just tell you, it'd be a bad idea to stand in proximity to the pond at that moment of time..

so when i came home, and fed the fish; i was swept by a wave of sadness.
there was no more fights over the food, and those 2 fishes, i hypothesise - could smell the food, but it couldnt actually tell where the food were.
kesian sangat.


i couldnt help but feel that they'd die a lonely death.


one morning, i was sidai-ing the baju when my gaze fell upon the pond.
there in the pond was 5 baby fishes! swimming happily and joyfully wiping their faces at their fellow comrade's tails..(i think they were playing tag-the-fishtail)

=)

i couldnt help but feel this upsurge of hope and a bright future for the life in the pond.


life is like passing the baton.
passed from the generation before us, to us..
and we shall later pass on the baton to the generation after us.


the fish that comitted suicide? - it never had the opportunity to contribute to the sustainability of the pond's ecosystem.
if we live for ourselves, blindly following what our nafs wants; then whats left for the future generation? dont let ourselves live for the sake of ourselves.

subhanallah..

the 2 surviving koi's? - though clearly having to stand tall through much difficulty (the blindness as well as the perpetual reminder of the loss of their friends - naturally, we refused to build another pond so they had no choice but to live in the site of murder) they were blessed by Allah Taala with fish kids - enabling them to continue the life in that very pond.

who we are today, will shape the generation of the future.
the whole life of our dearest Nabi SAW was dedicated for us - the future generation.

we may have had our past.
but we still have the present.
and whatever we do in the present shall affect the future.

"Life begins the day you start a garden" (Chinese proverb)

at 17, Usamah bin Zaid LED an army to Syria.
at 21, Sultan Muhammad Fateh conquered Constantinople.

like the saying of one imam, "when the deen enters the heart of a child, he matures"

we may have passed the age of 17 or 21, but its never too late for us to truly embrace iman - for if we truly want to adopt the ingenuity of our prophet, then our lives today is for tomorrow.

To ensure that iman enters the hearts of our children, then iman must first enter our hearts. it all begins with us.

a lesson i derived from the 2 blind fishes; as cliche as it my sound, 'life goes on'
=)

thank you, dear fishes in the pond for teaching me a lesson in life
=) =)=)

mode:skmtikletronik kne stdy tuk final.self discipline is like a muscle,the more u train it,the stronger u become.the less u train it the weaker u bcome=)


berakit-rakit ke hulu berenang2 ketepian,berSUSAH-SUSAH2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian=)..

garments~

bismillah..

(2:187) they (your wives) are garments for you and you are garments for them

garments are not held together by a few big knots but by thousand little stitches of thread..

it is not the large amount in the hantaran but it is the accumulation of small words and little acts each day that make up this garment..

the point of a garment is to provide warmth, protection and decency..
any scar or imperfection of any form on the body is kept hidden beneath the garment.

marriage will reveal one's true colours-like that imperfection on the body- but may the faith in Him keep our hearts strong to continue stitching and embroidering beautiful words and acts despite circumstances.

there's a part of my friend's nikah khutbah that I found really interesting. the imam told us that the arabic word used to describe spouse is 'zauj' and it lexically implies one of the pair as in - like say gloves - there is always a left and a right. different: the left is not the same as the right, but when paired - it will be more useful. or to accentuate the importance, like the wings of a bird. it may take some time for the left and right wings to synchronize-after all the baby bird can not fly upon birth- but once they are able to, it'd make the bird soar high up in the sky=)

marriage will reveal our differences.
our taste in clothes or food, or even the way we use our time - everything that our spouses do will affect us.

the garment he/she may be stitching for us may not be to our preference, hence, may Allah give the ability to be true to each other such such to taylor garments according to both sides' liking..


two heads are better than one - an emphasis of the value of asking for opinions and the power of discussion in generating creative solutions with a partner who may support and complement our skills and understanding.

(2:187) they are garments for you and you are garments for them =)

to my dearest friends who will get married especially to my most dearest K.T_._._(raya ke3),and A_._._._(raya ke 3 juga~)

BarakAllahu laka, wa baraka 'alayk, wa-jama'a baynakuma fi-khair
May Allaah bless for you (your spouse) and bless you, and may He unite both of you in goodness.


owhh, and to those who have/will get engaged! (especially org yg tunang on the raye kedua nnti and raya ke 5 may Allah make ease all that is best for you deen!
=)

and to KAK TIERA n SHAHRIL AZAHAR(kalian ngertikn?=),ngee..tahniah.alhamdulillah atas segalanya~_~..im happyyy for both of youuu!! and still am=) )~

Abu Hurairah (radhiallâhu anhu) narrated that the Prophet (sallallâhu ‘alayhi wasallam) said: “Among the Muslims the most perfect, as regards his faith, is the one whose character is excellent, and the best among you are those who treat their wives well.” (Tirmidhi 278, 628, 3264 and Abu Dawud)

=)

pilihan

selagi belum tamat perjanjian kite dimuka bumi ini

selagi tulah kite berdepan dgn pilihan

pilihan utk menjadi baik atau sebaliknya
pilihan utk buat atau tak ape yg Allah suruh,
pilihan utk tinggalkan atau tak ape yg Allah larang..

ya..

kita punyai hak utk memilih..
jalan yg kite nak
buatlah ape yg kite nak

tp..
dsana nnti kite akan dipertanggunjawabkan dihadapan Allah
bile dah berada di sana nnti no turning back
nangis air mata darah sekalipun,x mungkin akan kembali smula ke dunia
whai hamba Allah,
adakah awk ingin hidup disana dibelenggu penyelesaian yg tdk berkesudahan?

tanak...
nauzubillah..=(..
ya Allah selamatkn abd ini..

hamba yg msih berlari-lari,kadang kala tercungap-cungap,kadang kala tersadung kaki dan jatuh..saat hamba ini jatuh,tuntun hamba ini ya Allah,agar mmpu berlari sehingga ke garisan penamat..dan mencapai redhaMu..

mode=muhasabah diri.+.stdy tuk regional pain exam besok

nenekku=)

bismillah..

alhamdulillah.tgh2 jalan time panas terik td,terlintas sesuatu di benak kecil ini
iaitu tentang pengorbanan..

pengorbanan srg insan yg bergelar nenek.* i miss my nenek soo much*
srg nenek tentunya penat slps susah payah membesarkan 7 org anaknya,
kemudian ditambah lagi dgn 4 org cucunya,
masa yg sepatutnya nenek habiskan utk berehat
nenek korbankan demi membesarkan cucu-cucunya

besar pengorbanan ini..
bukan senang utk berdiri diats kaki sendri
menjadi ayah dan juga ibu dlm masa yg sama
menjadi ketua keluarga,tulang belakang keluarga,
utk terus kuat taktala umur makin menganjak usia

namun pernah nenek memasamkn muka?
pernah nenek mengungkit?
pernah nenek ckp penat?

tak..tak penah..

sebaliknya hanya senyuman yg menghiasi bibir nipis itu
ucapan alhamdulillah sering bermain dibibir
la tahkof wala tahzan menjadi zikirnya
deraian air mata hanya di hadapan Tuhan,smsa dipertiga mlm..
sedikit sgt rehatnya..

cucu yg nenek besarkn ini pula yg menjadi malu
malu dgn diri sndiri
krn trlalu fragile,trlalu mnjakn diri
trlalu ikut perasaan,trlalu..dan terlalu byak kekurangan

nk jadi mcm nenek..nk miliki hati setabah dan sekuat hati nenek..
~nenek sumber inspirasi~=)

~TIADA MASA UTK TDK BERSEMANGAT~

what u r fighting for?

bismillah..

skematik letronik,
Want to end the cycle of struggle?

know that this is a temporary state. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been where you are. All that you need to know is that nothing is permanent. All things change, even if it seems that they don’t. It’s simply a law of nature — nothing stays the same forever. The universe is constantly moving, evolving, and changing, and so are you. So instead of seeing this as a neverending path into darkness, know that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, and every day, it’s getting closer

skematikletronik,
remind yourself what you’re fighting for...
“Jadikanlah sabar dan solat sebagai penolongmu. Dan sesungguhnya yang demikian itu sungguh berat kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyu’, (iaitu) orang-orang yang meyakini bahwa mereka akan menemui Tuhannya dan bahwa mereka akan kembali kepada-Nya”. (Al-Baqarah: 45-46)

“Kerana itu, ingatlah kamu kepada-Ku, nescaya Aku ingat (pula) kepadamu dan bersyukurlah kepadaKu dan janganlah kamu mengingkari (nikmat)Ku. Hai orang-orang yang beriman, jadikanlah sabar dan solat sebagai penolongmu. Sesungguhnya Allah SWT sentiasa bersama dengan orang-orang yang sabar“. (Al-Baqarah: 152-153)

“Sesungguhnya Rasulullah SAW apabila menghadapi suatu persoalan, baginda segera mengerjakan solat“.


certainly this life is not just to grow up, have a family, work merely to keep ourselves ‘living’ and later on die.

what do we have to present to Allah on Judgement Day?

people are dying to help the ummah and to bring back justice to Islam...

.......

bismillah..
Never regret anything that has happened in your life, it cannot be changed, undone or forgotten so take it as a lesson learned and move...

smlm,bncang topik(sy mestilah muslim dr sudut ibadah)dr buku mazayakni.

Berkata 'ulama':
"Sembahyang itu adalah urusan akhirat, maka kamu masuk menunaikannya
(bererti) kamu telah keluar dari dunia."

...Tidak ada satu perbuatan mendekatkan diri (taqarrab) kepada Aku
oleh hambaKu yang lebih Aku cintai selain daripada kewajipan-kewajipan yang
Aku fardukan ke atasnya. Hamba Ku akan terus beramal menghampiri diri
kepadaKu dengan melakukan amalan-amalan sunat sehingga Aku mencintainya.
Apabila Aku sudah mencintainya maka Aku (menjadikan) pendengarannya yang
dengannya dia mendengar, penglihatannya yang dengannya dia melihat,
tangannya yang dengannya dia memukul dan kakinya yang dengannya dia
berjalan. Jika dia memohon sesuatu dari Aku nescaya Aku berikannya. Dan jika
dia memohon perlindungan Aku (dari sesuatu) nescaya Aku akan
melindunginya...Hadis oleh Al-Bukhari)

Mereka sentiasa mengambil sedikit sahaja: Masa dari waktu malam, untuk
mereka tidur. 18- Dan pada waktu akhir malam (sebelum fajar) pula, mereka
selalu beristighfar kepada Allah (memohon ampun). (Surah Al-Zariat 51: Ayat
17-18)

"Mintalah doa kepadaku, nescaya aku akan memperkenankan permintaanmu"..

*silent mode*

stdy group

bismillah..
Staying motivated is a struggle — our drive is constantly assaulted by negative thoughts and anxiety about the future. Everyone faces doubt and depression. What separates the highly successful is the ability to keep moving forward.

stdy group~
thurs(7 -8.30 pg)=injury to UL(ortho)
saturday(6.30 ptg-10.30mlm)=intectious disease-atun(enterov,thyphoid fever),
-nd(scarlet,measles,g.measles,roseola)
-pah(erythma inf,varicella,HSV,mumps)
sunday(6.30-10.30mlm-OnG=normal labour(2 jm pertm=k.iman)
=contraception(hida)

monday(2.30 ptg-5.30 ptg)=ong(3rd stage compl=atun
antep.hg=yah)
tuesday(7-10.30)=paed(neonatalogy)-jaundice(nd),
-resp.problm in infant(pah)

The first motivation killer is a lack of confidence(focusing entirely on what I want and neglecting what already have.)
The second motivation killer is a lack of focus. How often do you focus on what you don’t want, rather than on a concrete goal?
A lack of direction kills motivation because without an obvious next action we succumb to procrastination.

It’s inevitable that you’ll encounter periods of low energy, bad luck, and even the occasional failure. If you don’t discipline your mind, these minor speed bumps can turn into mental monsters.