fish that comitted suicide?

p/s:to my family,angoh da tak pkai email azshahida tu,tkar kpd putribuluhbetung@yahoo.com=)..thank u,ym still yg lame=)*hantupisang21*..

i remembered the 1st time my pak su and mak sue bought koi's to fill our little fish pond, one of them comitted suicide.

probably couldnt stand the change in environment.
or probably it was separated from its mom or dad.
or maybe it was bullied by the other big fishes in that big clear bag while on the way home from the fish shop..
or maybe it overheard my family and i joking about how convenient it was to just catch the fish in the pond and bbq it, complete with an imitation from bruce the shark from finding nemo, "we're having fish tonight!!" *evil laugh* (i think that came from paksu..hehe)


Allah knows best.

whatever it was, the fish killed itself. it was swimming so fast-non stop till it died;


that was the first em, death case in our pond.

last year i called up my mak sue, but instead of our usual girl talks, she related to me the massive deaths of our fishes inflicted by the water pump.
it mysteriously stopped working, and because my family xde kat umah for about 3 days, the stagnant water had ample time to murder the fishes - one by one.

my paksu and my brother had to dig this massive fish graveyard and completely clean the pond.

subhanallah..

there were only 2 koi's left, but both were blind.

it was pretty difficult to imagine there were only 2 left, and BLIND..
they've always had this amazing ability to sight people coming near the pond, they'd terus come up to you- their mouths'd be kissing the air - eager and practically begging for food.. and the way they fight each other for those ball-like fish food..let me just tell you, it'd be a bad idea to stand in proximity to the pond at that moment of time..

so when i came home, and fed the fish; i was swept by a wave of sadness.
there was no more fights over the food, and those 2 fishes, i hypothesise - could smell the food, but it couldnt actually tell where the food were.
kesian sangat.


i couldnt help but feel that they'd die a lonely death.


one morning, i was sidai-ing the baju when my gaze fell upon the pond.
there in the pond was 5 baby fishes! swimming happily and joyfully wiping their faces at their fellow comrade's tails..(i think they were playing tag-the-fishtail)

=)

i couldnt help but feel this upsurge of hope and a bright future for the life in the pond.


life is like passing the baton.
passed from the generation before us, to us..
and we shall later pass on the baton to the generation after us.


the fish that comitted suicide? - it never had the opportunity to contribute to the sustainability of the pond's ecosystem.
if we live for ourselves, blindly following what our nafs wants; then whats left for the future generation? dont let ourselves live for the sake of ourselves.

subhanallah..

the 2 surviving koi's? - though clearly having to stand tall through much difficulty (the blindness as well as the perpetual reminder of the loss of their friends - naturally, we refused to build another pond so they had no choice but to live in the site of murder) they were blessed by Allah Taala with fish kids - enabling them to continue the life in that very pond.

who we are today, will shape the generation of the future.
the whole life of our dearest Nabi SAW was dedicated for us - the future generation.

we may have had our past.
but we still have the present.
and whatever we do in the present shall affect the future.

"Life begins the day you start a garden" (Chinese proverb)

at 17, Usamah bin Zaid LED an army to Syria.
at 21, Sultan Muhammad Fateh conquered Constantinople.

like the saying of one imam, "when the deen enters the heart of a child, he matures"

we may have passed the age of 17 or 21, but its never too late for us to truly embrace iman - for if we truly want to adopt the ingenuity of our prophet, then our lives today is for tomorrow.

To ensure that iman enters the hearts of our children, then iman must first enter our hearts. it all begins with us.

a lesson i derived from the 2 blind fishes; as cliche as it my sound, 'life goes on'
=)

thank you, dear fishes in the pond for teaching me a lesson in life
=) =)=)

mode:skmtikletronik kne stdy tuk final.self discipline is like a muscle,the more u train it,the stronger u become.the less u train it the weaker u bcome=)


berakit-rakit ke hulu berenang2 ketepian,berSUSAH-SUSAH2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian=)..