06 December 2010

'private stuff'

10;32pm,Wednesday..1.12.2010..

Bismillah..

Ngantuk..check folder2 lam laptop..terjumpa satu folder..


‘PRIVATE LIFE”…ada password..byak kali cubaan membukanya..sebab penulisan ni dah lama.password pun hampir lupa..


Alhamdulillah Berjaya dibuka..

……………..;)…………


Dan kisah didalam dibaca..


‘All of sudden
The pain is too much to bear
The vain feels like a torturing lair..


One second chill the spine
The other, melted under the sunshine
Set tears and laughter on the same line
Possessing such powers that stop the time’

………………………………;(……………

Sabar..sabar…Allah knows..Allah knows..


Hidup kembarnya ujian..datang dan terus datang tanpa henti


Dengan keimanan kan mampu bertahan..

Allah tahu,malah Allah lebih tahu

Ini yg terbaik,sgla yg terjadi..inilah yg terbaik..


Scared..but …Allah knows..;)..

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mode:ke'jelesan'...;(,,nyhow..semoga semua baik2 sahaja.pasti ada jalan keluar,sepercik harapan,serta pahala...hasbunallah wani'mal wakil..usia dunia yg sgt singkat dan gudang nikmatnya yg sgt kecil..


cari Allah..jika tlh berjaya menemui 'Allah',bermakna telah mendapat segalanya..


....supaya setiap bencana akan menjadi anugerah,setiap ujian menjadi kurnia dan setiap peristiwa menjadi penghargaan dan pahala..ameen..


life is full of coincedences..even 2 parallel lines might some day meet..;)

26 November 2010

2 sides of coin

"a rolling stone gathers no moss"


The first time i came across it, i thought it meant - if you keep yourself busy, keep your mind working - your brain wont grow mushrooms, or deplete - or something to that extent.

But the intended meaning is actually; a person who is always on the move, and not able to stay at one place for long enough will not be able to make much friends.

2 sides of a coin.
Our perspective of things really are dependent on how we look at it and are often influenced by our experience and surroundings.

i guess in this case, the fact that im x pndi mem'buzy'kn diri, and in need to keep myself busy; and my negativity towards moss, kulats and anything of its brethren has influenced me to interpret the aforementioned maxim as such=)

difference in thoughts, in perceptions are common.
there's gazillion ways to look at a single thing..

hence, let us ask Allah that He grants us Hidayah upon looking at things the ways He wants us to..

while some perceive hijab as a form of liberation, others think it is opression.
while some feel sujud is a beautiful form of submission, others think that it is degrading.

it is all a matter of opinion.
hence, neraca apa yg kita guna untuk menilai sesuatu?

Biarlah fikiran, perbuatan, segala dalam hati dan amal kita menggunakan neraca Allah.
let us sungguh-sungguh mohon sangat sangat pada Allah Taala that He gives us the ability to judge between right and wrong; Furqan.. and act upon it..

(8:29) O you who believe! If you obey and fear Allah, He will grant you Furqan, and will expiate for you your sins, and forgive you.. and Allah is Owner of Great Bounty..

Kejayaan sebenar hanyalah dalam ketaqwaan kita pada Allah, ketaatan pada rasulNya dan keberadaan kita dalam syariatNya.

25 November 2010

hidup kembarnya ujian

masa berjalan..

dan terus berjalan..

terlalu laju meninggalkan kita

bismillah,alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah

hidup terlalu singkat..semoga sepanjang usia berada dimuka bumi Tuhan ini,dpt hamba ini mengenal pencipta sebenar2nya,dpt merasai kasih sayang pencipta,dpt mencintai Allah dgn sebenar-benar cinta..

mampukah??

izinkan hamba ini ya Rabb..

hidup kembarnya ujian,datang dan terus datang tanpa henti.hanya dengan keimanan kan mampu bertahan.atas segala ujian

sabar...sabar..

Allah knows..Allah knows..

la takhof wala tahzan.innallah hamaana
la haula wala kuwwata illa billah

Allah certainly has unique ways to show His love..;)


When you feel like everything seems to go against your way, just take 5 minutes to sit down and reflect on all the blessings you have in life, and the things that actually went your way. May then, the smiles will return, the sun will break out, the music will play, and you will finally be able to move forward the life that God intended for you with grace, strength, courage, and confidence.

alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah

segala yg Allah beri terlalu banyak..

terlalu..


p/s:seminggu hampir kpd exam midterm dan osce~markah 54(dekat ngan separuh!!!)perlu stdy dgn bersungguh-sungguh.;),gunakan masa dgn sebaiknya insyaAllah...

btw,elektif hematology sgt best;),tersusun,dr yg baik2,jumpa patient yg ada leukemia(AML,CML,etc..)HL,NHL,anemia(ITP,SPHEROCYT,VWD,HEMOPHILIA,ETC..),kesimpulannya..

seyesly...best,.;)

alhamdulillah,mungkin lepas ni tuk elektif yg akan dtg,kne pilih departmt int med kot,insyaAllah..

23 November 2010

life is short...make me strong..;)


Life is short, so work hard and pray hard.

kat bawah ni lyric 'make me strong'by sami yusuf..;)

I know I’m waiting
Waiting for something
Something to happen to me
But this waiting comes with
Trials and challenges
Nothing in life is free
I wish that somehow
You’d tell me out aloud
That on that day I’ll be ok
But we’ll never know cause
That’s not the way it works
Help me find my way

My Lord show me right from wrong
Give me light make me strong
I know the road is long
Make me strong
Sometimes it just gets too much
I feel that I’ve lost touch
I know the road is long
Make me strong

I know I’m waiting
Yearning for something
Something known only to me
This waiting comes with
Trials and challenges
Life is one mystery
I wish that somehow
You’d tell me out aloud
That on that day you’ll forgive me
But we’ll never know cause
That’s not the way it works
I beg for your mercy

My Lord show me right from wrong
Give me light make me strong
I know the road is long
Make me strong
Sometimes it just gets too much
I feel that I’ve lost touch
I know the road is long
Make me strong

Words: Sami Yusuf
Music: Sami Yusuf
Produced by Sami Yusuf

17 November 2010

;)true muslimah..



A True Muslimah…

“The beauty of a true Muslimah,
Is reflected through her soul
Flowing with passion through her eyes,
Growing in love with a glowing heart,
Revealing her internal beauty through her acts,
Overflowing with love and comfort
As her life is full of compassion
She is like the tranquil hidden pearl,
Beneath the stormy wide ocean,

Her strength is her trust,
Her glamour is her modesty,
Her dignity is preserved,
Fearing Allah all the time
Living a life seeking Allah’s Mercy and love
Her aura of beauty is felt within
As she flourishes the lives of those she touches
With warmth and kindness
Her heart glowing with patience
As she nourishes the lives of those she touches
With understanding, sympathy and kindness
Her eyes glowing with love
As she binds hearts together
With her true beauty of sisterly love
In the name of love for Allah.”

;)barometer buat DR(daie rabbani)

bismillah..

wantabih min rakdatilrhof..lati fal'umru qalilu..

wathroh saufa wa hatta..fahuma da 'uun da khilu..

mode:mujahadah(berusaha keras...;))kerana.. einda nafsika minal roflati ma yakfiiha..
dan ada barometer yg telah ditetapkan buat para daie..

qalbun yatillu afkarihi,wayadun tamdii l'umuru wanafsun lahwuhatta'abu..

Be truthful in everything, don’t lie.
Be sincere and straightforward, don’t be hypocritical.
Be honest, don’t be corrupt.
Be humble, don’t be boastful.
Be moderate, don’t be excessive.
Be reserved, don’t be garrulous.
Be soft-spoken, don’t be loud.
Be refined and gentle in speech, don’t curse and use foul language.
Be loving and solicitous to others, don’t be unmindful of them.
Be considerate and compassionate, don’t be harsh.
Be polite and respectful to people, don’t be insulting or disrespectful.
Be generous and charitable, don’t be selfish and miserly.
Be good natured and forgiving, don’t be bitter and resentful.
Share and be content with what Allah has given you, don’t be greedy.
Be cheerful and pleasant, don’t be irritable and morose.
Be chaste and pure, don’t be lustful.
Be alert and aware of the world around you, don’t be absent-minded.
Be dignified and decent, don’t be graceless.

Be optimistic and hopeful, don’t be cynical or pessimistic.
Be confident and have deep faith, don’t be doubtful and wavering.
Be spiritually oriented and not materialistic.
Be confident of the mercy of Allah, don’t be despairing and lose heart.
Be diligent and vigilant of your duties, don’t be negligent.
Be thankful to Allah and constantly pray to Him, don’t be forgetful of His innumerable blessings.

Finally as the righteous say, “The love of Allah is the axis around which all good revolves.” If we fall in love with Allah, and then strive to be true in our love, in accordance with the way of the Beloved of Allah (Allah bless him and give him peace), then we will find nothing but increasing light and contentment in our life..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..;)

14 November 2010

scene 1,2 and 3

Scene 1:

You're sweating profusely. No, its not the heat. But it's question number 5 on your final exam paper. What on earth is this questionnnn?? grrrrr O_o

and the fact that you're school genius is sitting beside you doesn't help at all as you steal a glance- and yes. It was no miracle that she was writing as much and as fast as she can.

Steal a glance and..

wait..

then you steal another.

It was then you realized that you could actually clearly see what she was writing..

Scene 2:

You're in desperate need of panadols. desperately desperate. The pain's taking away all your energy. You cant think straight. You cant even walk straight!

When you've finally arrived safeway (which is hugeee), you take a box of panadol (which is tinyy).

The huge supermarket was deserted. There was no one at all in sight. Not even the safeway freshfood people. You rummage your handbag to see which panadol your purse is allowing you to afford when suddenly you realize OMG! you didnt bring your purse!!!

Your pain throbbing.

Scene 3:

Congratulations! you have been elected as the treasurer for the rotary club! (actually the election was 7 months ago:p)

The new month has come and it's ceti time. being the efficient person you are, your members have learnt to pay up on time.

You walk out the meeting room with aud5000 in your pocket (CASH $.$) .

Your stomach suddenly grumbles. in fact, its actually been grumbling since yesterday since you haven't been eating. This month has been a bit tight since you had to buy a new laptop.

You pass a sushi shop - your favourite! AND THEY WERE SELLING CHEAP TODAYY!!
JUST 50CENTS a sushi roll!!!

You don't have money in your account

You only have money in your pocket.

A lot of money..

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Scene 1:

Cheating on your people. Corruption.

Scene 2:

The pain of your ancestors still makes you cringe but the white phosphorus burns on these Palestinians? - satisfaction.

Scene 3:

You are the country's finance minister. Country's billions are in your hands.
No one would notice if you buy your wife a Chanel handbag or two.

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pesta berpuasa sunat,

The food's there in the fridge. In the cupboard. Everywhere in the kitchen.
Your tummy grumbles - You're famished!!

There's even a box of your most-favourite-box-of-chocs-in-the-entire-universe on your desk.
You soooo want them! - You're salivating!!

No one's around. No one's at home.
But you choose refrain, to stay on fasting.

Because Allah is watching.

Taqwa.

With taqwa, every deed counts eventhough no one's watching.
With taqwa, your pain doesn't give concession to do injustice to others.
With taqwa, every cent counts eventhough you have gazillions.

Fasting trains self-restrain, self-discpline, and integrity. To have ultimate control over yourself.

mode;byakkan puasa sunat,+..tinggalkan perkara yg sia2..+,segala yg Allah beri terlalu banyak,lebih dari cukup..alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..lebih dr cukup utk srg hamba survive diats muka bumi Tuhan..;),alhamdulillah atas segalanya..;)

p/s;gejala sosial dimlysia makin menjadi2,..sayangkn malaysia,sayangkan agama islam,belajar mencintai agama islam supaya awk juga mmpu utk buat apa sahaja utk islam..;),